blood and pills

What happen when all there is left is me and the memorey of you? whats going to happen when all this is thourgh? Whats going to happen on this next day? you said you loved me, but then you went away, and it leaves me curoius on why didn't you stay? at one time my faith was so strong, and now it seems im bearly hanging on. i fear the God i loved for so long has left me, tuned away leaving me nothing but the mermory of you. i'v tried so hard but all i feel is pain, the blood pours out of my veins, as i see it hit the ground my heart is the only thing that is bound, you say im not being myself, what the hell do you know about losing to yourself. i fight this battle like no one else, but when its over i still lose, fighting yourslef is a lose to lose battle, you never win or get ahead. i stand there still watching the blood hit the gouind, my head gets lightheaded, then i can smile, all of a sudden the world starts to spin, i ask myself what happen, then i hit a wall..then another. then yet another, then im down to my hands and knees trying with all my energy just to crawl, then someone puts a bandage over the wound. only so i can reopen it, and its all because of you. your the reason i used to live, now im relying on this pill. things of old now seems clear, then i brust into tears, why is this happening to me, shut the hell up and take another pill. why do you want to hurt me so much, only because of who you are, how can i change who i am, its useless, then the blood once again hits the grouind, my eyes close, and i can't be found. i have been in a battle with myself. which one wins. its hard to tell. though all i know is one is gone, then i take. another pill.